You said I was your favorite.

I remember you.
Like you are still here.
I remember your laugh.
Like you are still laughing.
I remember your voice.
Like you are still speaking.

I miss when you would run your fingers through my hair.
I miss when you would hold me close as you watched my hopes tear.
I miss when you would drive me in your car.
When you would tell me I was the best by far.

The smell of cigarettes still reminds me of you.
I breathe deeply remembering our long walks without shoes.

I wish you would call.
Say hello, act like you cared.
I wish you would come.
Just to see me, like you said you would.

I understand.
Times are hard.
You are falling asleep.
You have been gone a while.
But don’t leave forever.

You don’t realize how much you meant to me.

How much you mean to me.