I wish I could easily reach out to you.

I wish you could easily reach out to me.

I keep the excuse that "it's not in my nature"

But really I am just frightened, I'm just scared.

Of what?

It's simple; rejection, neglect, abandonment.

It's a reoccurring theme in all my relationships.

Every single fucking one.

I thought she was different.

I thought he was different.

I thought they were different.

I was wrong.

Trusting people seems to always leave me more broken in the end.

I have lost all trust in the human race.

I look for the bad not the good in people.

For when I expect the worst I won't be as disappointed when I receive it.

But with you, I want to get to know you.

I want you to know that I understand.

I really do.