Retrospect

When I take a step back and examine my choices, my thoughts, my beliefs I see that I am an ever and constantly changing being. I grow, I learn, I fall, and I manage to find a way to rise up again. I used to consider myself static and unchanging but I see now that that is very far from the the truth. My indecisiveness has led me, in many ways, to where I am now. I'm not residing in hell nor the deepest darkest crevice of my mind anymore. I am swimming, swimming toward the light and the oxygen above the surface. I am swimming toward my freedom that I have lost long ago. I am finally understanding that these invisible chains can be broken. I don't need to be trapped in this iron cage any longer. The weight is being lifted from my chest; the hand around my throat is loosening. I am becoming free. I will be free.