It's as if every single light has been dimmed and every candle blown out. Like a wave of guilt, horror, self hatred, and an unbearable sadness crashes over your vulnerable mind and heart; when all you are able to inhale is pain. It's when you feel as if this labyrinth is infinite and any hope that you have ever claimed as your own slowly burns and disintegrates. It's when you close your eyes and imagine various ways you can put an end to it all. When you "fantasize about your own demise" and form different cynical plans inside your head. Its when the voices rise and scream their slanderous words until they become your truth. Its when you feel the darkness engulfing you and gripping you firmly at your throat. Its when the cold settles deep into your bones and misery into your brain. When all you can do is wait and keep repeating to yourself, "This too shall pass, this too shall pass, this too shall pass."
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