Silence is the key. Remain silent, reveal little, and keep your inner most, private, cynical, and upsetting thoughts to yourself. That way you are always one step ahead. Never depend on anyone; become self sufficient and independent. Remember: Everyone will let you down and the fool that utters “forever” is a liar, sometimes we lie to ourselves too when we promise “forever”. Nothing lasts forever except your eternal bind to yourself, which in fact can be broken if you so choose. Develop your relationships to learn and grow and give your knowledge to others, not to be fulfilled or satisfied by another being. That is called a false sense of hope because no one will ever be truly able to fill you up if you are empty. Or perhaps I am wrong, perhaps my perception is warped and tainted. Some people see more, some people see the sadness in things others see happiness in. A young couple in love; this couple will end up more broken than they began. A new born child; this child will grow up to have to endure the pain the world plans to place upon his or her shoulders. Some see sadness, some see happiness, no body sees reality. I suppose reality is a mixture of the two, although I evidently tend to sway towards the negative side of the spectrum. Some may blame my character, some may blame the chemistry of my brain, some may blame my upbringing, some may blame culture. I say, nothing is to blame. I say reality will always be a mix of the two and no human being will ever be able to see reality for what it truly is. Funny how I can ramble on, I have completely switched subject although I didn’t exactly have a subject to being with. This piece of writing has been written in vain. This shouldn’t make any sense to anyone. I make no sense. How can I? I don’t even understand myself.

She left and she isn’t ever coming back.

She sat far away and stared often; she is always present but always at a distance.

She stayed but its like she’s not even here, like nothing ever mattered.

She pretended to leave, yet is still haunting me every moment of every day.